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Thousand Years
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
Thousand Years-Christina Perri
Savoring a cup of Gong Cha while resting at the library :))
What is enough?
Why is the path of success always tough and fraught with difficulties, trials and tribulations? Perhaps this is the reason why not many people are successful in their life. They tend to give up in the midst of pursuing their dreams and goals, especially when faced with a gargantuan task, in my case is the O levels. I am beginning to think that I belong to this group of people. I know the paramount importance of working hard, but am I doing so? Perhaps many people would feel that, I’m bullshitting, that this is an example of a mugger saying that he hasnt work hard, what a pretentious and hypocritical person. If you happen to be one, then that only shows that your understanding of me as a person is superficial.
The start of the 3 week long battle is going to start in 3 days time, and yet I’m here deluding myself that there is still a long time before the Os. I tell myself to work very hard, but I lack the discipline and the motivation. I’m on the verge of breaking down already… The only thing I wish for now is for a sudden surge of strength and motivation to work hard. And for the O levels to end soon.
IT’S NOT ABOUT WAITING FOR THE STORM TO END, BUT TO DANCE IN THE RAIN.
Is it so? I’m just afraid that I would be drowned by the floods and forever submerged in the abyss of darkness.
WASTED.
How I wish I have the ability to turn the clock back..
Im really tired of pushing on already.. Its just a few days more to the start of Os, and yet I’m still not prepared for Os.. How I wish i can go back in time to make up for the time wasted not studying… ################################################################ HAIZZZ This feeling sucks.
WASTED.
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Im getting tired already.. The monster in front of me is so gargantuan, which to me, is invincible. I tried all that I can, mustered all my courage to subdue it… On the verge of breaking down. Why is that I have to put on a facade to hide all of my fears? Just for the sake of not letting my loved ones worry about me?? This facade is crushing down on me, I just cannot put on this facade anymore… I just want to hide in a small corner of my room to cry my out my fears and worries.. This is simply too much to bear…
DOUBTS
I feel suffocated, suffocated by the heavy burden thats crushing down on me. It’s waves of disappointments after another, and it is crushing down on me… I’m beginning to cast doubts about myself.. I’m just drifting along in life, not knowing what’s in for me. The path before me seems to be unclear, I really dont know how to continue walking, for i dont even know where Im heading too…
LOST.
Emptiness…. When everybody left and move on with their life, I’m the only one left at the junction…. The feeling of emptiness and failure suffocates my senses….
USELESSNESS and STAGNANCY….. Suddenly, I’ve lost my direction in life, my purpose in life….. Why am I here? What am I supposed to do? The terrifying and horrid feeling of being lost starts to overwhelm me. It just seems that everyone in this world had abandoned me…
